yes//.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

memories { written on 4:22 PM

memories seemed to be fading
i cant remember the very first time i set foot in everything.
its time for me to keep it here
so that everything would remain as fresh as it could possibly be.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

{ written on 2:46 AM

I can't believe I m still awake
Tossing and turning around in bed
The past that kept me' raked
Phrases appearing in my head
Beside me my mom fuming in red

Ignoring the ticking of the seconds
Neglecting the smooth turning of the minutes
Treating hours with the skill of invisibility

Mom just wouldn't understand the struck of my insanity
Phrases turning into line
Tears flowing with undefined
Breathing became harder to refine
It's been long since I struck with such lines

I m seizing this opportunity with all my might
Even if it cause my life
Being stuck would make me' hold a knife

That's why I m writing this tonight
In case I no longer has any vibe
I m unable to understand your side
As I ain't a guy
But hopefully what I feel now is right!

serpia { written on 2:10 AM

Emo tonight
No one to confide
I will fight the night

mood fluctuate as happiness retaliates
you are no longer there to relate
i dun think you know i am about to suffocate.

friendship changes
as patience ages
space between us fell apart in more than inches
It's me that brought about the rebellious
it's me that caused the overwhelming emotions

it hurts me to see you drift
pains me to even breathe
knowing memories would turn into dust
whats left is a serpia past...

Labels: poems

Saturday, August 28, 2010

The unspoken truth { written on 9:38 PM

You asked for a phrase
I came up with a poem
A poem that spoke of your endless pain

The droplets of rain depict those days
Days you left me at bay
With truths spoken your way

eyes switching as emotions swayed

dependency and security came in between the lane
I felt like i was being tossed far away

Predictions evolved into reality
Characters fit in naturally
I guess i was never part of your life in the very beginning.
Habits seemed to be able to part so easily
or is it just me
holding onto the past so tightly

treasuring every friendship so dearly

Who cares even though rain continued flowing down from roofs.
who cares even if your tears flooded numerous roads
who cares even if you cried in pain claiming that you felt all alone

Undeniable fact became so crude
that even patience couldnt resolve this ignorant feud

You wouldnt know what i feel
cause i wouldnt speak of the unspoken truth

i came up with this poem

with tears to rejuvenate the lines
causing pain to bind like vines
sadness that became so divine

i hope i came up with the perfect lies

Labels: poems

end of a chapter { written on 9:38 PM

I hope that things could change
where life doesnt have the end of page.

Labels: phrase

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

complexity { written on 12:50 AM

Complication that twines within the simplicity.
it portrays the depth of creativity
with no one to understand such insanity.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

inceptions { written on 2:10 PM

Staring at a blank piece of paper
Stuck in my own inception
i couldnt help but be emotional
Hoping i would be struck with an inspiration.
Splash of ink stained the only hope of purification
Perceptions that led to misinterpretation.
Lies that reveal miscommunications.
majority remains.
Purity with stains you reign
You may have the brains
The ability to keep me hanging...
behind those smiles, a facade that brought me bittersweet pain.

Knowledge widens
human relations brought upon disappointment
It aint something i would have expected.
every detail carries another definition.
with me unable to get the right recognition.

emotions bottled up filling to its brim
tough enough to surpress it within
with no one to understand the true meaning
i made the extra effort.
If roles were to revert
i bet you would have grabbed your legs and turned your back against us.
LOOK! i didnt
i clenched my fist
with pain to feast
hoping someone would be there to ease.
i was SO naive
thinking that it would remain just like it used to be.
staying at that very spot
waiting.....hoping......
one day it will end with a happy dot.

perceptions { written on 10:18 AM

Hopeless crossroad with pain to bear
Heart thumping as if it's gonna tear
If only someone bothered to care
someone could tell me not to be scared
i would then dare to take a breath
But it seems like i am not supposed to even stare
If i did, it would cause my death

life is so unfair
Just like the shapes between apples and pears
Some showered with care
Some pain much to bear
The good and awesome ones are so rare
which made it different from the rest
life is just like that

I am wearing the sorting hat
Fate fell in the hands of that lad
What can i do bout that
Teach me something new
so that i could at least be true
Words became drools
Filled in a pool
i want to be cool
i guess it's too hard to rule
I am back at the crossroad with
nothing to choose
a future to lose

It's a decision so divine
that i could not keep up with time
life is just like lime

the bittersweet life of mine

it's ever so prime
i guess it's hard to define
so let's just be nice
and see whats there for thy.

facades. { written on 10:08 AM

I built walls on empty space
so that people would not sense my pain
Stairs added hoping to reach an aim
endless journey made me insane
i saw that face
with eyes that gazed
With smiles that portray real facades
just let me be dead
so that i will never get the chance to feel the pain

However,
Tears pouring down like rain
Heart pounding like the churning of trains
Worries accumulating like rice grains
Smiles portraying the bittersweet pain
i must be insane but i am tamed
No mater how much i yearn for an embrace
i knew it will never be replaced

Someone told me i was no longer jasmine
behind those facades i hope someone could find me.

i'm sorry { written on 10:03 AM

Taking a trip on my time machine
Memories shine with pain unwind
This familiar taste i dine tonight
but somehow i could never make it right

Friendship sailed away
love is the price to pay
your name would come up on my cell everyday
but why is it not today

I wish upon every star
but i guess you werent the one
how i wish to say
i like you in every way
but why make me choose between either way

crossroads { written on 9:58 AM

Hopeless crossroads with pain much to gain
who can i blame
The pillar of strength slowly diminish
with work unfinished
What can i do to even deceive
hiding real emotions
Making life torturous
I am just a coward
Unable to voice my emotions
hopeless
Helpless
effortless
Grit my teeth
bear the pain
Its time to move on....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

a pain i cant express { written on 8:50 AM

The sweetness of our pure friendship
is ruined within your confessions
and my constant rejections.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

randoms { written on 12:29 PM

MAKAN moments!

S11 muffins

Cafe cartel brownie cheesecake

PLATTER!!!!

Friday, July 23, 2010

To be edited. { written on 1:58 PM

Wheels churning on moving cars
Colours twirling on sweet lollipops.
I wish life would be ever more colourful
Not filled wih twirling and churning
I wished upon every star
believing it will all come true.

Emotions cooped in a jar
Heart charred
like two countries in war
debating over black and white
Overwhelmed.
I wished again
hoping to ease the pain
everything in vain.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

flames. { written on 11:29 AM

i cant believe it hurts
so much for my heart to burn.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

words hard to express { written on 9:45 AM

i cant make the words for your heart to see
every word I say i could feel your heart bleed
i didnt mean to hurt you like this
for i aint ready
but the truth hurts
the lies worse

But i guess i am just a coward as usual
Afraid of losing you
Thats why i rather suffer not you.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

surpress { written on 11:43 PM

Living in denial
like verses in recitals
Trying not to be critical
but everything seems hypocritical

I see raindrops falling on window panes
hoping that my cell would have your name
All day long i anticipate
i guess i must be emotionally insane

Tears trickled down in vain
just like raindrops falling on window pane
my heart swelled in pain
knowing that our friendship is stained.

You took off in a plane
When you know things aint gonna be the same
Who am i to blame
What do i have to gain
WHen i am just another Plain Jane.

UNCLE LOUIS n PIGGIE! { written on 10:42 PM

shall blog some really nice food photos
and stop creating emo yet lousy poems!

I STILL LOVE DESSERTS!!!!
But i guess new york new york still has loads of room for improvement!

STABBED { written on 12:29 AM

With those disgusting tone
You started on manipulation
trying to overthrow the throne
To make me your tomb

I cant help but think it's doom
every dice that's thrown
I'm closer to becoming stone
Who will be there to help remove
When there isn't room

Stuck in a trance
WHen you cant afford to risk any chance
Game is what you want
But listen up!
This is not what i want!

I was dumb
To believe your freaking stunt
Now causing me to fall like humpty dumb

I need to put a stop to this
but i guess the angels never gonna be pleased

Silent desperation
Hoping for a solution
I aint enjoying such sensation
So i feel like killing you for toying with my emotions.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Fangxiu! { written on 11:15 PM

Finally step foot into KAP's island creamary!
AWESOME!!!
ambience there nice!!!!!
had black forest and nutella!
YUM YUM!!!!
shall go there often!
OVB peeps!
WARNING WARNING! HAHAHAHA

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

mother paranoid. { written on 12:24 AM

Eyes scanning through the crowd
A tinge of sadness oozing out
I could no longer see nor write
as memories slowly turning white

Trying hard to fill the colours in my head
but i've forgotten what's red
Helpless, I tried again.

This time round ,
i chance upon a kid with a lovely cherry ice-cream.
Those innocent looking eyes
The smile of a simple hi!
Accompanied with
the warmth of a mother's embrace
The smile of a mother's satisfaction
Yearning so much for such emotions
I couldnt help but thirst for a reaction.

However i couldnt come up with the right expression.
to tell you how much i wish for it to happen

Saturday, June 19, 2010

pain2 { written on 6:24 PM

sorry to leave my blog dying.
but things happen for a reason
recently
everything coincides really well
with whats happening to this blog.

barrier up once again

seeing myself disintegrate

cooping in disguise

memories i reminisce
telling thy self
everything's gonna be alright.
But who am i trying to hypnotise.

as time passes
and things happened
i lost all forms of expressions

Monday, April 19, 2010

pain { written on 3:10 PM

when life aint going your way
just go astray
but remember to be back in lane

Dreaming that things wouldnt be the same
Working together towards a common aim
tiresome and restless mood filled my face

All of you
armed with bullets
BANG! feeling hurt
I felt restless
Please do spare a thought here
as i could no longer move further

INTENTIONALLY
looking at all the food
Laughing away looking cool
hoping that things would be good too

invisibility now so familiar
presence seemed surreal
Simplicity far fetched
I'm caged with
complexity on every edge.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

doubting { written on 12:16 PM

Commotions kept arising
cant help myself from doubting

Maybe it's just me who cant do anything
yet sitting here making a fuss out of everything

sorry if i am trouble
or unintentionally being skeptical
if only you were here
things may not be that difficult to settle
I know i shouldnt be so reliant
or even procrastinate.
But really it's crucial

sick of facing all of this shit
without having the will to keep thinking positive.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

SIGHHhhhh.... { written on 6:24 PM

existance neglected
concern rejected
frustration activated

energy rejuvenated

temper agitated

however.....

tears flowed backwards
words fell on "deaf ears"
welled up with unsure
hope seemed so near
as coward as ever
i shook in fear
afraid of losing you, my dears
gripping onto rails
nearly breaking all nails
i never failed to fail
putting on a veil
i left a trail
a trail named FRAIL.